Six more weeks and I will be back…
Six years away from home….
With mix feeling, but its time to be back.
During these period, I had forced someone to be a better person, willing to take up responsibility, will not hide behind me when there is a problem. Although there are unexpected tragedies happened during the process which can’t be reversible. Countless time, I had blame myself for being not good enough. “C'est la vie” become a reminder for me to learn to move on.
Learn to be more appreciative. While being away… there are a lot of thing I had to do by myself or have to learn to open my big mouth to say “Can you help me please?” then learn to tolerate their “awful face colours”… kind of misses things will be done naturally without me saying anything.
Learn to handle emotion properly. I always have friends to talk to, so never really learn how to handle my emotion. Especially the past three years, worried being betrayed, I kept things to myself. Thought it should be alright, but over some period, I nearly go bonkers and can’t even work. Manage to find a balancing method to handle it. Now look back, find that I am too childish.
Misses to be part of your life. Heard/seen a lot of interesting/exciting things but never be able to be part of it was quiet upsetting for me. But nevermind, soon I will be back… am looking forward to be part of the things that I wanted to be with. \(-_-)/
My dear friends, please be extra patient with me, like reading this long winded and horrible English blog written by me, as I have been a loner for too long . Time will be needed for me to adjust. I guess my family will have a hard time dealing with me too.
Six years away from home….
With mix feeling, but its time to be back.
During these period, I had forced someone to be a better person, willing to take up responsibility, will not hide behind me when there is a problem. Although there are unexpected tragedies happened during the process which can’t be reversible. Countless time, I had blame myself for being not good enough. “C'est la vie” become a reminder for me to learn to move on.
Learn to be more appreciative. While being away… there are a lot of thing I had to do by myself or have to learn to open my big mouth to say “Can you help me please?” then learn to tolerate their “awful face colours”… kind of misses things will be done naturally without me saying anything.
Learn to handle emotion properly. I always have friends to talk to, so never really learn how to handle my emotion. Especially the past three years, worried being betrayed, I kept things to myself. Thought it should be alright, but over some period, I nearly go bonkers and can’t even work. Manage to find a balancing method to handle it. Now look back, find that I am too childish.
Misses to be part of your life. Heard/seen a lot of interesting/exciting things but never be able to be part of it was quiet upsetting for me. But nevermind, soon I will be back… am looking forward to be part of the things that I wanted to be with. \(-_-)/
My dear friends, please be extra patient with me, like reading this long winded and horrible English blog written by me, as I have been a loner for too long . Time will be needed for me to adjust. I guess my family will have a hard time dealing with me too.
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